Proud Daddy

Peanut!!!

They say Hawaiian islands are enchanted, and full of romance. This, I can attest to!  In October, while visiting the beautiful island of Kauai, the magic happened.

A few weeks later, my boobs hurst SOOOOOOO bad, and by 8:30pm I was doing the head-bob of exhaustion. Rich called it, and I was in denial. "You're pregnant" he would continue to say with a smile. I continued to say "there is no way."

But then, here it is... I'm 2 weeks late, and was starting to think he just might be correct.

On Sunday night, we built up enough courage to journey to the local drugstore. hand in hand, we stood in "that aisle" and looked at all the brands. I'll admit, I was nervous, giddy with anticipation, and completely filled with fear all at the same time. I mean - this is real. I'm standing right here. Looking at "these" tests, and am going to BUY one - FOR ME.

You see, for years, I did not think this could happen. Dr's said it was going to be unlikely, and I tried to hang on to hope... but in my ripe old age of 33, I was beginning to settle with the idea that perhaps my destiny was to have the pleasures of being an aunt, and mother to only creatures that could not speak my language, ran on four legs, or swam with gills, or hopped with webbed feet, or hid in shells, or only needed sunlight, soil and water to survive.

We got home. I didn't do it right away, and I don't really know why - I think I was trying grasp the concept that maybe, JUST MAYBE, a plus sign would appear on that pretty little white stick. But was also afraid, it might not. Rich kept saying to get started. And I kept coming up with excuses and to-do's.

I finally got the courage, and snuck into the bathroom. I carefully read the instructions on the box. Studied the sterile white stick. And let it began... much to my utter amazement - the lines appeared INSTANTLY.

I just stared at it. Hand steady as could be.

And was completely overcome with peace. I read the instructions again, just to be sure...yep, I followed everything to the tee. But the line "Results may take up to two minutes" kept repeating in my head. And I kept thinking - but this was instant - INSTANT.

After a few minutes, I stepped outside, walked up to Rich (who was kindly doing the dinner dishes) and just showed him the stick with the bright blue plus sign. Water still running, he stepped away from the sink, soapy hands and all, and walked around the corner and embraced me. We just stood there and hugged for the longest time. And he whispered, "congratulations Mommy."

This morning, I did it all again - just to be sure.

Make no mistake - a little baby is tucked away, deep inside my body, sharing my nutrients and stealing all my energy. :)

Welcome little Peanut, what a journey we're about to embark... and I can't wait!!!

Tonight, I realized...

This week...

• On the 10th, I will celebrate my 7th anniversary for being a San Diego resident,


• On the 14th, my parents will celebrate their 40th wedding anniversary,


• On the 14th, our nation will honor the 232nd anniversary for adopting the flag of the United States.

In the last 7 years...

I have lived in Oceanside, Leucadia, and La Costa (Carlsbad).

I have learned to love this ocean so deeply. The surfing, the fishing, the beach outtings, and especially the "sea bone" collecting. I find solice, and peace, and answers when I'm on her - and even near her.

I have learned the crisp and definative lines drawn between a Native and a Transplant, and have met wonderous people from both sides. :)

I have worked at a Sportfishing company, an Asian restaraunt, the fantastic Trader Joes, a marketing firm (unworthy of a plug), and eventually went back to the real world with a successful Security Technology Distribution company that brought me full circle to my passion - Information Security.

I have been a mother to 60+ plants, 3 fish, 2 frogs, and my most precious Sadie - the most gracious miniature schnauzer.

I've had the pleasure to have lived as close as 3 houses from the ocean and loved hearing her whisper me to sleep, or have her furocious surf wake me during a heavy storm... and I also learned, being this close = mold will live on everything, paperbacks/photos/receipts/letters - pretty much anything paper will not survive, and clothes NEVER dry.

I have enjoyed watching countless sunrises and sunsets from my board and the sand, finding sea treasures on every walk, playing in the glowing fun of red tides, and witnessing her ever changing dispostion. And I have gained a enormous respect for her. To some, she is a line. To me, she is my world.

Just over a year ago, Sadie and I moved 5 miles inland *gasp* but have realized just how lucky we are. We are in such a wonderful home with amenities a single gal can't afford solo on the beach. Oh how I missed the bubble baths! We still have an amazing view of the sunset, and have since replaced all the furnishings - and healthily live mold free! :) Soon we'll be making another move when our family expands. I'm excited to see where this next path will lead, and have no doubt in my mind it will be even more spectacular than I could even imagine.


And, I smile.